I’ve never been the kind of person to count the months, or keep track of anniversaries, birthdays, or first time dates. As the days turn into weeks, weeks turn into months, and the months approaches a year, I keep hearing people say it’s coming up on the anniversary date of you passing. I am still… Continue reading Time means nothing.
Today I’m missing you. Yesterday I was overflowing with feelings of Frustration Frustrated of loosing my partner, my friend, my lover, the father to my son I went through the motions of trying to find reasoning to why you are no longer here I won’t try to be philosophical by stating that you: Are no… Continue reading The totality of you
It has occurred to me after somewhat examining my current mental health, I think that I might have to get away from this city, this state, to tend to my wellbeing. I want to get away from this city that constantly reminds me of the great times we had and the difficulties we faced. I… Continue reading In the stillness there is clarity
It seems like its been forever since I’ve spoken with you. As you may know or may not know (I don’t know how the other side of life works, if you have some supernatural powers and you are able to read minds? Do you know how I’m coping?) Well, I’ve been having difficulties lately. I… Continue reading One little bumble bee buzzing
When dealing with grief, there is not turning it on and turning it off! I’m not a damn robot. There is no acting in a certain behavior (keeping it together) to help those around you to feel comfortable. There is no I will deal with it later, because right now just isn’t the time to… Continue reading People are stupid
It is shocking how, I might be thinking, I’m making some progress. I’m not crying every second, I can get up and get dressed without movement hurting. I can even meet a friend for coffee and short walk. Then one day a reminder, something shows up, something like a Facebook reminder, and it tells you… Continue reading Uniquely Different
Today all I feel is a whole lot of pain. I’m missing you. Not to fond of the life that I’m living at this moment. Everything has been thrown out and I’m standing here in the void, not even an echo to bounce off walls. Just a void with no vision of the future or… Continue reading And the tears keep coming